ARTISTS TALKING

# 7 [24 February 2010]

we had the meeting on monday.  afterwards i felt that i had been over prepared and some how not prepared at all.  i do have the dvd of what i presented for my archive.

i have a lot to consider from after the meeting.  i've worked a lot on progressing the work, and interestingly i now feel i have a whole new set of issues to think and work through. 

the consideration of the curatorial aspect of the project is challenging.  i'm wondering if the work will develop slightly informed by the knowledge of it's relationship to other work in the exhibition.

i'm really pleased to have had the meeting.  next deadline to work to is words and images for catalogue stuff.

# 6 [21 February 2010]

my plan this morning was to get up early and collect more sequence images.  didn't expect what i saw when looking out the window...

# 5 [19 February 2010]

my favourite quote at the moment goes like this.

making the simple complicated is commonplace

making the complicated simple-awesomely simple-that's creativity.

said by charles mingus.

  my intention with this future focus commission is to offer a space to consider possible futures.  

i'm attempting to overcome an anticipatory anxiety by producing a presentation on dvd.  can't wait to see what the response is on monday.

nut roast and roast spuds.xx

# 4 [18 February 2010]

i've overcome several days is angst ridden frozen ness ness, derived from the thought of the presentation next monday.

i've not experienced anything quite like it, well there was a time in a hall in erfurt or somewhere in germany on the first night of a european tour. 

i've discovered there is such a thing as anticipation anxiety. 

i've experienced a several day long bout of it.

optimistically i am over it and able to create for the presentation.

mash and haggis.xx

# 3 [8 February 2010]

more working on the dvd structure today.  it has a form now that will hold the content i want to explore.

i need to make a maquette for the container of the content. 

i also have more filming and editting to do.

no formal meetings for this project until the 22nd, so it appears all safe and sound until then.  there are of course other things happening, so staying focussed and driven until the 22nd is i feel a must.  i write that and in my senario self can hear made up comments about what i've written. 

i wonder if i carry a generational weight of expectation with me.  i wonder if there is a possibility that there might be a way to express that within this piece of work.

it's early february and my sun deficiancy is with me once again.  tiredness and general fed up ness intersect with the bouts of happines and making.

iron rich food and tea.xxxx

# 2 [1 February 2010]

i awoke from a nightmare this morning

small dwarfs on tricycles

pink trousers, 2 t shirts and a shirt

carpets that were alive,  cardboard stuck in lifts

weighing machines

steel

wobbly ladders.

i awoke from a nightmare this morning.

unfulfilled expections of consultation

and image gathering

a one way system

parking fine

under preparation

and over indulgent

rigging realisation.

i awoke from a nightmare this morning.

after porridge i ventured out to do some gathering of material to work with.  in the public sphere with an optical recording device has become  daunting and the memory of my experience in norwich last april still weighs on my mind.

back in the studio, the joy of playing with material, manipulating and changing it’s form.  so good to see things only previously imagined.  again visually is so much more interesting than imagined.  again seeing visually setting up new unimagined paths.

in the afternoon, an email, there’s a presentation in three weeks time about the work and all things getting the work into the gallery.  no pressure.

# 1 [20 January 2010]

we had the first meeting on monday.  this actually seems real now, i am working towards showing a new piece of work in quad in may.

it's so exciting !