DEGREES UNEDITED

# 37 [29 May 2010]

That is it.

The End.

The opening was last night and it was a brilliant experience, but it also signifies the end of my uni life.

What am I going to do now?

Which path will I take?

time will tell...

# 36 [23 May 2010]

The final day of my degree. It's not even the final day, I have less than 24 hours left. And I feel like I'm stalling.

I have to polish off my sketchbooks to be assessed and I don't feel like it. The sun is not helping as well.

I just have top think, this is the last slog, get it done, make it great.

Make it work.

# 35 [20 May 2010]

Very little time left.

It's all coming together. My work is up on the wall I spend three days fixing, and my work now covers most of the work I did.

I ironed my work toady. I bit obsessive of me, I know. I now need to finish off the small details of the text, rolling up the bottoms and sticking the tops. Which are all very small things and should be simple.

I find it annoying that I now have to spend my time organising my back up work so it is cohesive. It is understandable to me and I find that that is what matters. But unfortunately that is not what matters to get a good grade.

I'm going to go to sleep very soon. I find that I can work better in the early morning than the late night. I've only been home for two hours, a little bit depressing but I won't complain as I'd rather get the job done that make a half arsed attempt.

Night night to all the final year students, I hope your degree show preperations are going well.

# 34 [14 May 2010]

It's hard work but it'll all be worth it. My first years are clearly useless, as none have turned up to help me. I'm doing sort of fine by myself anyway.

One of my board problems has been sorted, the other will be fixed tomorrow, by the technicians or myself. I will make sure it's fixed.

And the floor will be painted tomorrow.

Then I can start hanging my work next week.

Busy, busy, but like I said it'll all be worth it.

# 33 [13 May 2010]

I'm on my way to finding solutions, but in doing so I have created further problems.

But I know that I am strong enough to make this work. I am a hard worker and I will stay up every night if needs be.

My space grew today. In my degree show proposal I asked for three to four meters. I now have five and a half.

I shouldn't complain, I have fought for space. I deserve space, I have worked in cold, cramped conditions.

I just need to rework my ideas and possibly create more pieces.

I know I can do this.

Don't doubt me,

# 32 [12 May 2010]

I'm rethinking again. The hanging technique is definitely a go but I'm unsure of the spacing. My wall is bigger than I had planned.

My practice installation seems to show that the gap in-between each work is too big. I don't know whether to show an extra piece or just decrease the space in-between and add it onto the space at the ends.

Go to find those solutions, maybe it is the drawings themselves.

Only way to find out is to keep working at it.

# 31 [11 May 2010]

I know how I'm hanging my work, so all I have to do now is finish making.

I'm so incredibly happy. My first attempt works. I just have to find the drawing that is eluding me.

The tasks of today are:

1. Post catalogues out to people

2. Buy poles to hang work

and

3. Make, make make

I hope this happiness lasts. I just can't believe it, it works!

# 30 [10 May 2010]

Today someone told me:

"There are no problems, only solutions,"

That is what I'm going to use for these next two weeks. I've found many problems today, but I refuse to left them drag me down.

# 29 [9 May 2010]

I'm having some trouble finalising my piece. There are five pieces to the work and I'm missing one piece.

No matter how many tries I have nothing seems right. Hopefully I can find a solution if I put my mind to it.

# 28 [7 May 2010]

I'm free to do my own work for the next two weeks, but I somehow feel haunted.

My work doesn't feel right and I'm annoyed at people taking credit for things in the degree show that they haven't done.

I feel like I need a really good shake, or just something to wake me up.

I want to make brilliant things, but I feel like I'm melting, like I'm dwindling towards the finish line. It's not a good place to be.