so about 7 weeks ago i didn’t fully appreciate how all the rapid alterations to my life and social world were affecting me – my response was to set up this blog – a self proclaimed residency and for a while i was able to keep that narrative up.
it helped me to talk about the whole thing slightly removed – almost fantastically. it helped me to present research findings in a separate method from the annual blog – at the time this felt really needed, i wanted the initial covid-19 time to be easily located in the future.
in those early days i was terribly in denial.
what was real was the research – i was able to be in the moment, totally absorbed in following through thoughts, responding to what i saw. through the making i was able to ease myself through and i’m starting to be able to look back at it now. if asked to describe it or talk about it, i’m not sure yet how that would be. maybe the further we all get away from the current situation the clearer and better understanding of it we’ll all have.
updating this blog proved difficult in april – the grief i was holding started to emerge and be worked through. i started to acknowledge what i was experiencing.
there was the non linear nature of grief and to be honest it took me by surprise just how deep i became with it. there were a couple of days where i was unable to work. i notified those who were waiting on what i was working on – they were so understanding.
returning to the residency narrative briefly – i was able to do some really beneficial research and later this week i’ll reveal what this has lead me to.
i feel excited today as i prepare for something new and exciting !