I forgot the term …you know when you really need to do something, but instead of getting on with it, you do something totally random that has nothing to do with anything really , like sorting out your sock drawer so that its colour coordinated?
Well, that’s been me the last few weeks. Not actually the sock drawer, but doing stuff that didn’t need to be done so that I didn’t have to think.
I was totally stressing over that piece of work in my last blog post because I had decided for no reason at all, to enter it for an open exhibition. It wasn’t on my list, I knew damn well that nothing would come of it ( whether it got in or not, who ever remembers work in these exhibitions anyway?) But I needed to prove a point to nobody but me.
I worked and worked on it until I was half satisfied, packaged it up, then on the morning of delivery, I thought ‘Why am I doing this?’
I have at least 3 exhibitions coming up that I need to spend time on…not this nonsense.
I was panicking because I felt that I had to constantly make new work. But I don’t. I don’t actually have to do anything. I could just sit here and twiddle my thumbs. Its my choice.
A while ago, I was invited to put work into an outdoor event. I didn’t hear anything for ages, then suddenly got an email asking to deliver the work around 22nd July. WHAT??
I didn’t have a clue what to put in as the work had to withstand the elements. Going to the studio made me realise that I could just rework something instead of making something totally new. No need for all of that panic and procrastination.
I’m making the houses from an old installation more rustic, then I will need to coat them with tons of varnish.
While working on that, I’ve been sorting out the publicity and images for the independents exhibition next month. I wanted to put a group show together of artists I have worked with and who have invited me to exhibit with them. Its really nice to have built up that rapport.
I’ve only just sent the blurb off, so I’ll be able to share it when it appears on the Independents Biennial site.
I’ll worry about the work later!
As for the exhibition in Sweden….. I’ve decided again to use an older work. It is something I liked and I really don’t want to keep shoving things in drawers never to see the light of day again.
I used to hate showing things more than once… but now I just don’t care. Life is too short