the abject object

In the interests of research, I’ve been reading the most interesting book on Superheroes called SuperGods, Our World in the age of the Superhero by Grant Morrison.

The whole comic book thing is a new world to me and I realise that there is a language and history there to learn if I choose and I’m not sure whether or not it is a good thing to delve any deeper. If I know too much will it take away the ‘mojo’? A little knowledge is a dangerous thing but a lot is a great big dampener on ideas. If I suddenly feel the weight of superhero history on my shoulders how will I cope?

Anyway, I have found that wisdom does indeed hide in the most unexpected places and in the history of Superman I suddenly realised a rather holistic revelation about my life and work. Now there are parallels everywhere like clues just waiting to be found.

I have realised that I am not seeking to find where the line is drawn between the good and the bad, the ugly and the beautiful, attraction and repulsion; I am looking to BE the line, somewhere that is both things and neither at the same time; and to exist in this no-mans land of freedom.

Perhaps I have just been watching too much Dr Who or maybe it really is where you can find shangri-la.

Having been completely sidetracked by socks (not for the first time I may add) – see new blog – I completely forgot to do my post last night, despite ‘big decision making’ occurring – here is what I have been working on at my studio.

It has been so long since I just made stuff – recently I seem to have spent so much time typing up proposals etc it feels like I’ve got myself an office job (without the perk of free staionary).

I can’t tell you how much I enjoyed just sewing old bits of clothing together – it is blissful. The only small downside is that when I started putting this work together it was March, and it has since been lugged around to various locations trying to find somewhere where it won’t be sat on (by cats and children) or unpinned (visiting toddlers) or cause a trip to A and E. Thus I have forgotten a lot of ‘what goes where’ and so on. Several pieces have been moved around (confession please!) and I’m sure I had more bits of green.

Anyway, with all things considered, it’s good to get started, which is of course, the hardest part.

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equation keyboard contribution by my cat.

Taking bizarre occurances and running with them in a ‘serendipitous’ sort of way is something that I try not to overlook. Perhaps it is a desperate hope that there is a hidden message somewhere that I am missing. The meaning of life, or at least of why we do certain things, that don’t necessarily make sense but feel ‘right’ at a particular time.

I live where I live, purely because of a chance event, and then a bizarre, against all common sense, instinct, that that is where I was supposed to live.

Look! my cat has just written the first bit of my blog for me, by chance, as I was pondering how to start. It is all part of a grand plan I am sure.

This is one of the reasons that I don’t manage to finish works that seem to have masses of potential, and have had hours of work invested in them, that then are abandoned, or interuppted and get forgotten – their time has passed, I missed the bus.

So that brings me to two works that I am currently feeling I should be revisiting. Both have been hanging around tripping my family up, at every opportunity, for quite some time. Should I continue with them? or set them adrift? Both exist under different circumstances and neither are in the forefront of my thinking at the moment, but both are calling to me.

1. SPECTRUM – this is an ongoing work started in late 2010. A work which I embarked on knowing that it would be one of endurance, will it ever be finished and how will I know when to stop? To date, there are 960 labels sewn on. Not sure that I want to calculate how many hours of my life that equals. Perhaps it’ll be finished in time to draw my pension, but will I care about it then? Does reasoning become more potent or diminish with time? When I started it, I don’t think I quite realised the commitment. However, it is a history in itself. At what point is it done enough to think I could exhibit it? And can I continue with it if I do?

2. (unofficially titled) TORN – this is a partner work to WORN. I really want to make it but remembering that WORN took 2 years to make, have I got that time to invest in this piece right now? I started it with a particular location in mind which has since fallen through – it would feel almost cannablisitc to dismantle her now. But if not now when?

Perhaps I shall leave it all up to Elsie to decide.

Been thinking that I might be being too irreverent to be taken seriously.

But then I remembered some words of wisdom.

Never a truer word said than in jest.

What is there to say except depressingly, friday has come early this week.

sometime later……

re-edit of posting……

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