As a second year BA Fine Art student I have reached that point in my university journey where I am looking both at the past and towards the future.

My first year was a more structured, work shop focussed, skill acquirng and developing period and it was fun. I felt ‘looked after’ by my tutors and the institution, it was safe, it was easy, it didn’t last!

As a second year I was plunged into a depth of uncertainty that I hadn’t anticipated was possible. The hardest thing to accept and certainly my steepest learning curve to date was the my reluctance to accept not knowing. As I write this it sounds so simple, yet my personal experience was far from it. Fear, frustration, despair, sadness, tears and anger were on show for others to see, it was awful – BUT! I would do it all again in a heartbeat because without it I would never have got to the stage I am at now as an artist.

I am not naive enough to believe I won’t ever experience this turmoil again, but next time it happens I will be ready, I won’t like it,   but I will need it, I will  understand why it’s happening and know that if I push on through it and continue to make, marvellous things just might happen.

 

 


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