holding down the muse by her tail…

…does anybody else wonder if they are risking too much of their youth on striving for an ellusive carreer..?
I have a lot of unanswered questions. Is this really important enough or just a complete indulgence.
I remember 8 years ago I was wondering if I was too old to change directios completely. If I should try and go and study medicine.. Maybe I should have done something more useful like that..