I ve made a start …. feels good. Going to try hard with the sketch book and the play : ) Started to refresh my website. Went for a walk, did some drawing. The key is to keep a day free so there is room to think and research ….
Finally, a break through. So, my main problem is TIME! Who’s isn’t right? You know the old time v money struggle of the average artist …. But actually it s not true. Turns out it is just a case of priorities.
I am a self confessed self help seeker and my recent study is The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vqterautik0
A wonderful different way to approach your actual desired work in the world, your skills and your true purpose. It has made me think of my practice as the most important activity. Where in reality it comes at the very end of my to do list after our business, where I am MD, Chief administrator, Teacher, Technician and Cleaner……. then there’s friends, my husband, my family, my health and my dog ….. so sometimes I get a bit of time to sit down and do my REAL work. And I have been doing it even though I have been quiet here, we have an exhibition here at the studio in 2 weeks : ) And when I get around to it, I feel truly alight, happy and content. And when I don’t, well, quite frankly I am one angry bitch inside!
So yesterday I took a leap which quite literally made me feel ill, I had to go to bed. I have hired someone to help me! Sounds fine, even sensible. But if I tell you that our business is still so young that I can’t pay myself yet then it may sound insane …. but I guess that is all about perspective. To me this is the ultimate commitment to my work, I am investing in myself! That make s me feel fantastic and also terrified! Lets see ….
