i realise that lack of a focus allows for a focus to have a place.
yesterday i had a day where i vaguely remember being hard on myself for not having a focus, where actually there needn’t be one. today i’ve spent some time focussing on those things that i feel are subconscious joys of doing. ok, i struggle to find words sometimes.
i’ve continued playing with you tube. i notice that depending on what the title and tags are, the related videos vary greatly. the best find so far is connected with the high energy film on you tube. it’s connected me with 992 videos of public toilets. i write 992 and remember that was the number of sneezes i recorded in the 11 months i kept count.
focussing today on things i want to do after this residency has finished has left me feeling optimistic and perhaps more likely to relax into this time of creative research, i so have to be careful how i write about my time, if i write like i talk about it, i’m sure i wouldn’t be taken seriously.
attached is the collection of moments from yesterday’s morning out. i like how one moment flows into another, like they are all choreographed and connected.
