After the conversation about the process of the make-up wipes I decided to put this idea into action. I spoke to a friend on Film Studies who kindly agreed to help me. I told her my plans about how I wanted to be filmed wearing a dress made out of wet clean make-up wipes, and then remove my made up face with my dress. I originally had thought to be filmed from a distance to see the whole dress and me doing it. However after a conversation yesterday morning with David the idea of a close up shot would perhaps work better. I think I automatically had gone for the further away shot due to how uncomfortable I would feel with the viewer being able to see my face without make-up that close. But as David said surely this would give the better effect as if I was uncomfortable there is more chance of the viewer being uncomfortable too.
After the conversation with David it made me think. I have become so used to wearing make-up over the years, now when I am not wearing it I don’t feel confident. I think it is because this is who I have become in a way. I choose to put on these products to change features I guess, to hide some things and exaggerate others. Most people still to this day probably haven’t seen me without it on. I guess it has become my shield against people? The world? Judegement? I don’t know. As stupid as it sounds if I were to come into uni without it on I know I would feel very uncomfortable. I know that the film needed to be shot close up to hopefully portray this uncomfortableness more. I know when I watch the film it probably will make me cringe, but as long as this makes the audience do this too I think it will be successful. Well hopefully.
