its tough – being honest with one self about where one is. the gap between the real and the aspiration. i came to add another post where i write about the infinite struggle and all that goes with it. another […]
again i find myself harbouring thoughts and wondering what to do with them. unconventional blog i know; its what i need to do in the moment. logic vs emotion in self and ai prompted p5js research lynch and the idea […]
i have to admit to having a habit of writing cryptically, writing around what i really am saying. i open thus because today is a day for honesty. today i have contacted an academic referee to let them know i […]
my self awareness of how i struggle to express myself is growing. for example i wanted to share the below picture and when i went to look at it needed to crop to what you see because i didn’t want […]
I’m currently in my second year of a practice-led, full-time Drawing Research PhD at Leeds Beckett University, where I am looking at how drawing can help us to understand loss. In my search for evidence of loss, I’ve been drawing empty chairs and spaces in care homes.
today was another version of the my friends house reduction print chose coloured card new scheme of work. approached as play with set place to get to. how does this work as play? try to keep in the moment with […]
first time working with a gelli plate only had water based printing inks foraged some leaves from the garden assortment of paper. before began felt nervous during the process was in flow at lunch i felt disappointed in what i […]
notes for an emerging research project in no particular order fine art basis intersecting well being psychology late diagnosis neurodivergence play theory reuse ethos play making/ play working extending the permission for adults research the work around sutton smith’s work […]
recently i found the rendition of the french national anthem at the paralympics original, emotive and engaging. the president of the paralympics committee’s speech engaged with me i’ve been considering how i am drawn to small groups of people, at […]
when i prepared the research degree application i can see now how stressed i became about what i didn’t know – the already published writing. becoming more accepting of what i don’t know and trying to stick to what i […]
keep the faith small steps little an often. play – what this is to me play – what this is to other adults play – how to frame as an activity for groups of adults within cultural settings music https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5nz1fx7p1Yw […]
it has struck me today that at some point i need to define what i mean by isolation – how does it apply to me and what does it feel like. this afternoon i walked our dog and on the […]
copied and pasted from a diary entry watch white lion episode wallander. at the end I cry. I cry because the end of the story shows me how as a person we have the choice to work towards something. something […]
notes about hope after sending a message to the author of a research degree thesis downloaded from acadeimia.edu write the notes while the feeling of hope is still present maintain a level headed ness about the message – its a […]
in working with isolation i can start to see how not joining up the sections of the practice feeds my self’s feeling of isolation. there is however an empowering factor to this that i am in control of the non […]
in wanting to research isolation, i’ve become aware of how i frame the research being important for eventually talking / sharing about the research. my thinking about what i feel like researching wandering into a paradoxical space – in wanting […]
in standing still and feeling the loss of both practice momentum and connection to groups through that practice facilitated, i embrace my self and all the now known aspects of my brain that influence all the little things everyday. acknowledging […]
lately i have been feeling that i’ m at a stand still. from a stand still i can: look around me listen to what other people say about past work feel good at being stationary see what resources are near […]
i described the idea for an experimental time based media project to chat gpt: an experimental time based media art project where I invite people to contribute time based files and in the combining of the files I explore the […]
aspect of discovering what was discovered many years ago – peruvian weaving lines. wanting to do research my way – not being guided to do it the way in which the dominate neurotypical past methods have been done. a neurodivergent […]
sometime after 8 o’clock this morning, standing alone in our kitchen, i cried as i listened to the sounds of the automata swan being wound for play and the soundtrack that followed with accompanying voice over. later i reflected upon […]
this blog is experimental in so much as i’m experimenting with recording the current feeling(s) situation(s) i am within so that in time i can revisit this blog/post(s) to see where i was relative to where i am. central to […]
the tricky second post – these were the words that have been on my mind for several hours and they refer to the nature of writing the second post after the euphoria felt at actually getting the blog started a […]
having mowed a lawn, i seek rest on a sofa and to begin to collate the happenings in my mind, as a means to try to understand and reconsile efforts of recent months that have yielded little. this blog is […]
