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what a day, non- stop information from 10am til 6pm – now I just need to process it all.

Some things of note; antiquarian avant garde’ believing we can go forward by going back

‘always bother’ Justin Quinell

Catherine Falkner

www.kathrynfaulkner.com

Monzoni’s shit and Chris Townsends Art and Death

also theory can be fun if you like

do you have an opinion? yes but backing it up and making that argument – work needs to be done on this.

This morning I tried to write something about the gaps between my act of painting paper on the floor with my hair in an attempt to re-enact Janine Antoni’s Loving Care but just got totally stuck whilst trying to find out more about the original work.

Lisa’s opinion is that her work was bourgeois and mine was grunge, both a protest, mine a result of my circumstances, hers hers I’m guessing.

Also later in the day we got into a peer critique and we identified that what you say about your work is as much a part of the work as creating it, and it’s easy to get it wrong.

And I’m floundering in to gazillions of options I am faced with at the moment. I can’t focus, I’m so distracted by so many things:

time

document

paper

power

oppression

body

value

destruction

transformation

authorship and who makes the work

experience

and these things are just so broad – I need a plan. Where do I start?

I think write it all down and cross out the crap.


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up at six today, despite moaning i like the long day. I pottered a bit, got stuff done, nothing too exciting just easing myself into the week.

although saying that i did scan in the pinhole images and inverted them just to see what they would look like.


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I’ve just watched Michael Haneke’s Funny Games as recommended to me by the head of the course. A psychological thriller where one character is aware of the audience and sometimes talks to them and also at one point rewinds time. Everyone dies horrible deaths for no apparent reason and it ends with the killers beginning the same process all over again.

I’m trying to work out what this has got to do with my work and then just as I begin to write this the penny seems to have dropped. We were talking about me creating a continuous process that causes itself to be repeated creating a cycle of pointless activity.

In this film the inflicter’s of torture seem to have no motive for their actions. To them it is a game. They have nothing against the family. They seem to simply want to occupy their time. One character who is aware of the audience refers to creating the film when they leave the family alone which will make it more dramatic. It would then seem that there motive is to create a film and that torturing and killing a family is just the process that they have chosen.

It seems odd to align this with my activities; making paper to document making paper. Does this make me a psychopathic paper killer? Any paper will do, and the decisions made about how the paper is destroyed will depend on the qualities of the material. The process may well have to be extended in order to create the document. Now the document like the film take priority over the subject.

Last week, or by now two weeks ago I held an event in my studio where the document took priority over the activities. Some students visiting the space asked whether I found that I was doing things in order to document them. I thought this was an interesting question. Does being aware that you are being watched change your behaviour? Sure it must. Having not much in the way of tripods we spent many hours setting up cameras and changing the space we occupied to create the document.

This was not always the case. Have cameras lying around at all times there were moments were we just pointed and shot and these created interesting and truthful clips unlike the carefully thought out shots where the viewer was in mind.

These ‘gaps’ or differences was something that my tutor identified when I spoke with her on Friday. She suggested I ask about the different between staging and re-enacting. And how my performing a act differs from the original. There are so many things I need to analysis here. And I really just want to get on with making the work.


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I had a meeting with my supervisor yesterday. It went ok. Then I went to Nevile Coopers show and began to see the day through red wine tinted glasses, needless to say today has been dreary.


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Waiting for the little green line to get to the other end without crashing the system has been my main concern today. Sat in the gallery surrounded by 70’s pop art by Neville Cooper I spent 8 hours putting together the webcam stills into eventually two films. A far stretch from making pinhole photographs where it’s all down to the human hand rather than the spec of your equipment.

Before all that I picked up the five prints I selected from the pinhole film camera I made. At the studio there are rumours of ghosts and these images certainly leave room from imaginings of spirits. You can just about make out a room possibly a figure, maybe a cat. The unseen captured and printed. Still, it’s far from what I want to achieve. Which now raises the question, have I gone to the kitchen to make a cup of tea and forgotten to boil the water? Or am I still in the hallway?

The collating of the still images into films seems contrived compared to the simplicity of capturing the images in the first place. I’ve chosen not to edit out the long periods of time shuffling about, drinking tea, chatting etc which has created a 16min long clip. I’ve shared it with the other MA students for a bit of feedback so hopefully they will respond and help me to improve it. It’s also possible that because I didn’t enjoy the process I am projecting this onto the work.




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