The Missing Link
Nearly 3 years has passed since I started this blog. Initially I was meant to write about Body Talks, a performance piece which was looking at age and the male body. I wasn’t sure of how I’d run the blog when I started it and I ended up, after the 1st 2 posts, disregarding it. Looking back at it, it was bound to happen: I was struggling with Body Talks, not really motivated with the piece, I was under pressure as time was running out quickly and I had no idea of what – and how – I wanted to document about the piece and its making. Body Talks did happen. We had 3 dates at the end of March 2010 at The Albany. Despite the extremely short period of time I had left to get the piece together – literally a day and a half – it went well overall. But it left me a bit drained and I could already feel the first cracks in my committment to my practice. As we went from Spring 2010 to Summer 2011, the cracks became holes and the holes became issues; step by step these issues took over my creativity & my lucidity when it came to make work. Or shall I say when it came to want to make new work. Fastrack just over a year, in Fall 2012, here I am trying to transit smoothly from a period of hiatus to the return to my pratice.
Initially the hiatus was thought to be definite. I wasn’t enjoying what I was doing anymore and I felt completely burnt out. However, without really looking for them, I found myself involved in several performance projects during that period and being prolific with my writing. It’s nice to see that I hadn’t lost touch with the arts but it wasn’t enough to convince me to have another go at it. Perhaps it was much easier that way; as I was still jogging down ideas of performances in my notebook I didn’t want to face the facts – that I was being creative more than ever – and so preferred to pretend that it was nothing significant, that it was no indication that I was ready to come back to my practice. Then my film project, A Cryptic Assumption, came along and that’s it! I was completely hooked again!
So today feels like a new begining for my practice, a new chapter in my artistic journey, a rebirth for this almost forgotten blog. Its rebirth wasn’t mant to be actually; as my brain was going overdrive thinking about all the different aspects of research I could start the new project from, using this blog made sense. With no second thoughts. I decided to focus, for the time being, exclusively on the exploration of the body and what a better way to go on an artistic expedition than recycling some old work and giving it a new lease of life. Body Talks, as it stands, get a second chance to breathe, having morphed into a blog that will, hopefully, retrace various stages, moments and elements of research on the new project. The new project is an attempt to reconcile myself with my last production and its failures. It’s not a case of re-invention nor a case of reconstruction, it is simply a case of re-interpretation.
