Recording in progress

Just as I was talking about the notion of rejecting everything, while on a much needed break in the forests of Suffolk, I actually had the time to read a newspaper, in which Tracy Emin's column was discussing exactly the same notion. So there you go, obviously I know what I'm talking about (lol)!

Seriously, there's reason enough for everything, and although it took me a few days to handle my rejection from a recent exhibition submission, I'm back on the case writing new sound pieces. I seem to respond best when there's a dialogue with others involved. So recently collaborating with Ian, we bounce back changes to the pieces via the web, for Jack to respond to. This was of working, I feel currently, produces my best and gets me critically working better.

I have also recently realised I have to stop taking on more (unrelated) time-consuming projects. They are just diversionary avoidance tactics, and there's nothing like facing yourself head on to get to the bottom of things. Hope this is not sounding too woolly. I feel I'm understanding my practice gradually more and more.

Another 4am brain awakening. Recently I've just been feeling a funny kind of blank, and I think it's because I'm trying to absorb a lot of information and ideas from the talks I've been watching of Douglas Rushkoff and Richard Feynman. Lots of food for thought about the universe, how things are, the joy of stuff and finding things out, the system of now, etc.

Anyway, at the moment I'm thinking about rejecting context and just doing what I feel, creatively. Yes, I know this may result in some naively-thought out work, but it's the only way I can make work that I personally value, and that means something to me. Of course there will be failures. But it's the only way I can truly do my thing – without regard for trend, historical benchmark or contemporary context. Let that come later, if it has to. It circumvents the ego too, since it's not produced to please anyone else. I'm not subscribing to the "if anyone else likes it, it's a bonus" club, more like it has to fulfill my strict criteria to work, and come from somewhere within me.