Eynsham Gods

Painting the doors of my home village still continues. Realized that I am intersection between the darkness and the light. Now that did surprise me.

I want to look at the issue of trying to work while on benefits.

My personal experience when an illustration contract was canceled by the client was horrid. I was accused of making myself ‘purposely’ unemployed and this was after making my business and tax records available to them. I was then told that as I had unsold paintings, drawings and further work on my computer I was required to sell ‘my stock’ before benefits could be paid and I must not do anymore painting. I spent a lot of time explaining things but it was three months before I received any benefits. I survived on my termination of contract payment and on loans from friends who only expected repayment when I was able.

I can earn money both from working as an designer and as an artist/illustrator but only on an irregular freelance basis. My own research says that any work means that all benefits will stop if I earn any money. I am frustrated by not being able to try working especially as more and more work is only being offered on a ‘freelance’ basis. I am unable to take an alternative job for reasons I am unwilling to explain here. I do not know how to get myself out of this trap.

I still paint because it is breathing to me.