fine art. stuff and things, mainly.
and last night was the industry private view for my course, although our course isn't industry based so it wasn't too busy. all the people were hovering around graphics and textiles and other thngs i don't know about. and tonight is our actual private view, scarey stuff. i dont want it to be over just yet. i've seen the real world out of the corner of my eye and i don't like it, not one bit. oh dear oh dear. its all coming too fast. i get my results a week tomorrow. eek. i just hope that i have done well. otherwise i'll feel like i've let myself down. and my work. my idea i guess. yes, i never wanted to let that down. i'll just have to wait and see i guess. crosses fingers, very tightly, more tight than tights.
and so i finished setting up my degree show on tuesday. i merrily skipped away knowing the hard bit was over. and then on thursday morn someone told me to go back and look at my work becuase they thought it had been damaged. so i ran to uni to find parts of my work distroyed. either by humidity or rain leaking through the roof. i instantly burst into tears, i spent a whole week putting that work together and i knew it was being marked the next day (today). so i took myself weepy eyed to the office to find a tutor. and they said they will mark it as it was before and give me some time to fix it before the degree show. but i am just so angry that it has happened. stupid leaky building built by cowboys. i dont really understand either, the work was there for a week and it was fine…i leave it alone for one day and it gets ruined. its going to be so difficult to fix.
and what a busy time i've been having. 4 days left. 4 whole days. and then poof, come 4o'clock on tuesday its all over. well the writting and making part anyway. and everything after is the fun bit. its like climing a very big snowy hill grasping a sledge, right now i'm nearly at the top, i can peer down the hill and see the finish line and all the people cheering me on. i've just got to be carefull that i dont get too prematurely excited and start waving or i may drop my sledge and have to go back and fetch it, so i can slide down the hill. but we all know thats not possible in the time left.
and so here are some pictures of my work so far.
and so i seem to have not written on here for a while. i inadvertantly exchanged the internet for some actual work. shock horror. but also the website diddnt want to seem to work.
it was lovely to be in a-n (twice) makes me feel like i'm actually getting somewhere.
today has been rubbish, i've been in a sort of bored restless- annoyed mood. someone lied to me today. infact they lied to me yesterday too. some people are too concerned about how things make them feel to realize that these things affect other people too. i dont need this with 10 days till set up.
i'm trying not to think about the 10 days becuase 10 days will soon become a week. and a week is no time at all. i think i will get everything done. infact i know i will. well i have some reservations about the intestines i'm making and the fake blood but everything else is ok. or will be once i finish the knees of my sculpture.
but folder wise, it could be handed in now i guess and it'd be alright. well after i add my last min documentation and things.
sigh, i think i better get in the shower. i'm going to a bbq tonight, i'm going to spend my whole time there feeling guilty becuase i'm not working. but my printer has no ink so i cant print anything. i was so posed to go to my mums to print the stuff out. but i dont want to. because everyone seems to want to play happy familys without me.
and so i still don't feel like i've done much work recently, and i hate saying that becuase i do work hard i promise. there have been quite a few things getting in the way of me doing work, only being able to cast at certain times being the main one. motivation being one of the others.
and i feel a bit funny today, i think i'm thinking too much about what ive loved and lost. and i found out today that my ex is going on a big uk tour with his band and where are they playing tonight? yup, nottingham. its the second time he's played here since we split up. part of me really isn't bothered but the other part wants to see him becuase we were good friends. and i hate loosing friends. and so loosing friends is never my doing. and thinking about friends too makes me a little sad, becuase in a few months everyone will be leaving, even all my friends from home are moving on, except one or two, and me of course. althought i'm seriously consideringing moving too, i feel a little like i've met everyone in nottingham, which i know is nonsence but i do feel a bit like i'm going round in circles in nottingham as everyone i meet knows everyone i meet anyway. and i'm scared about not making friends when im not a student anymore.