In order to have a nice looking video/ a video that I can manipulate with, I had to use of the Adobe programs. I switched between Adobe Premiere Pro and After Effects (AE because I was silly and thought that PP was the wrong program, but I still learned something, which was unnecessary, but…yeah).
In Premiere Pro, after almost destroying my laptop with anger that nothing is working and everything is too slow, I created a 25 minute video of me changing 25 emotions.

The effects that I used for my video was: cropping, adding grain/noise, changing brightness, sharpening and colour correction. I colour corrected the picture from warm colours to cold colours as seen underneath here:

The reason for cropping of the picture was mostly because in this video, I didnt want my eyes to be seen and I accidentaly moved lower than I wanted and only one of my eyes was in the frame(looking creepy and weird).
I am currently working out some issues on my laptop, downloading some supporting program from my video player, but once I get it working, I will upload the video on my youtube/vimeo account and put the link here. I like updating my posts, so I will be probably updating this one.


In the past days, I tried another way of working. Meaning using different props/colour.In these pictures below, I used LED lights to put a different mood to the photographs, purple shampoo to make the water purple and a canvas. The idea of using a canvas came to my head when I thought about making the surroundings ‘soft’. But in the end, it made the whole photo look staged-like, which is not what I want. I thought about it, because I really enjoy these pictures and like my expressions in them, but I want my work to be all about the domestic space. Making it a little bit closer to the viewer/audience.

The other ones, without the canvas have a sense of vulnerability, making it look like the pictures were taken in unpredictable moments of someone’s suffering.
DISCLAIMER: In the photos, my mental health is not at risk, my aim is to portray emotions and situations connecting to my idea/project. In these pictures, I am just simply making a use of my acting background.


Today, after many hours of work, I finally finished my painting. The title is still unknown as I am still unsure if I want each of the works to have their own title or a title all together.
I was asked this question by one of my lecturers last year with my series of paintings. I decided to give each a title but at this moment, I can’t remember any of those titles, so I think even for myself, giving one title to everything would be more memorable, but I will see.

The materials used for this painting was Oil paint mixed with Sansodor, both from a brand of Winsor & Newton.


at the time of trying my projection, I saw nice light coming through the ceiling windows. Thankfully, there was a nice matress laying around and Sadly, I forgot my tripod.
How I worked with it? I put my phone on a chair and secured it with my jacket and a tissue box a.k.a if you want something to work, you will find a way. I sat on the matress and tried some of the expressions that I use for my photography in general. The pictures in the end looked good, but I couldn’t stop looking at some parts of the photos. Sometimes details of one picture make a whole new picture.

In my first year of uni, I would think that cropping of pictures takes away their beauty and it just ruins it. I would not expect myself at that time cropping the pictures with joy.

This one is another favourite detail picture of mine from past shooting.


Projection is supposed to take one of the walls of my little cube exhibtion. As I mentioned before, I want the whole exhibition to be focused on emotions. The projection is going to be projecting me changing emotions. I want to experiment with using just my eyes, my mouth, making it go in slow motion and trying to leave the sound in it to make it slightly disturbing/uncanny.
When trying out my projection in the studio space, I could not see anything as my studio space is facing the windows with strong light, so I tried to change the room to see how my projection would work in the light similar to the one inside the cube (the entrance to the cube is in a shape that prevents the light to go fully in the space).
Its not completely dark, but it still allows the projection to be visible.
Here is some screenshots of my video that I recorded today of the projection. I tried to place it in two spaces that felt like the darkest.
: I believe that using a better quality projector will make the projection look way better than it did with my small projector.

I am not 100% sure if I want to use this video and I might try recording another one to have something to compare it to.
I also need to start thinking about the texts that I want to put around the room/ one text on one wall. After I settle down with the video, I will start working on getting maybe some domestic materials. Could be a mirror! (This idea just popped into my head at this moment so Im excited) Mirror ‘mirrors’ the conversation of the person with their emotion. At this moment, I feel like I have too many ideas that I need to narrow down or try!!

Because I felt like I need to write everything down, I created a small sketch/ mind map with all my ideas and connections with all the details and a possible title for my exhibition!
: Because I like my photography more in a colourful effect rather than the black and white, I have decided to try a different approach, creating for example a black bath or using black and white clothes. All those little things will help me connect to the black and white painting and performance video/projection.
: Another thing was deciding what part of the exhibition is going to portray what emotion. That is why I researched how many emotions exist, and although there is dozen emotions that connect to one another, the number that was displayed was 25. All those emotions are written down on the paper that is attached to this post.
With that in mind, I already used some emotions separately: Anger, confusion, surprise and maybe pain. When asked for an opinion from my friends, asking them what emotion they see, one of the responses was ,,Refusing to show how confused you are feeling, trying to act proud + ok and feeling indignant and aggrieved. A mournful loss of understanding”.
when thinking about the detail that could give the series something underneath the skin of it, I thought about my performance. There is 25 emotions. My plan is to have 1 emotion per 25 second, ending with the time of 12,25 minutes (If my calculations are right haha). And then, slowing the video down to 25 minutes. That means that it will be 25 emotions in 25 minutes.
Another idea is to create an animation of 25 minute timer that will reset itself after the 25 minute.
:Hair is another detail, that I will try to focus on more. In my performance video, I will leave my hair being messy and maybe even curly. I want the hair to reflect the emotional state of mind=sad-straight, angry- styled hair that was messed up, all emotions-curly hair all over the place, reflecting all the emotions