what do i want ?
a question i circularly bounce off of.
it’s been the question that i’ve been wrestling with in respect to what i propose for the first application. from a session this morning i’ve been able to write some notes pertaining to this.
something else i’ve done today is read the interview with steve mcqueen in the guardian(1). i’m so reassured to read that he doesn’t have a studio and his work happens where ever he is. i had been starting to feel a bit of a freak as i too don’t have a studio and i work where ever and when ever the mood / need takes me to do so.
another question that has materialised this weekend is one of do i pay for applying to an opportunity? i’ve seen an opportunity based in dubai and there’s a submission charge(2).
while considering attempting 12 in 14 i had briefly considered that i would not pay to submit to an application. this was singularly based on the first three opps i’d seen being free to apply to. in reading the dubai opp i was at first put off by the charge. on reflection, i now wonder if the opportunity is one that i want to apply to.
the really good thing is that in reading the dubai opportunity i’m reminded of those basic facets for being an artist at this time (contemporary artist).
in applying myself to the tasks, i first have work to do on myself and my method of mediating about what i do, what i’m interested in and what i want for the audience experiencing the work that i make.
with an existing structure for arts practice, why have i previously attempted to make it so difficult for myself?
(1) http://www.theguardian.com/film/2014/jan/04/steve-mcqueen-my-painful-childhood-shame
