finally i get time to sit and reflect on the residency so far. i say finally – there’s quite a vibe around the building, those here can be quite fiery so the days pass with their own uniqueness.
as well as the research there are some really beautiful social moments. breakfast time has had a couple of highlights this week with some scrummy boiled eggs and a date outside for breakfast with coffee .
in terms of what am i researching within the residency – it’s open at the moment. the whole thing has come about so out of the blue that i’ve gone into it with a very open mind – to see where i might go.
there has been some consideration about the nature of confinement and isolation. being a prisoner has come to mind. in that situation the confinement is as a punishment. so far this is not a punishment so the nature of confinement is very ambiguous. isolation – again the classic film vision of this is steve mcqueen with a baseball – is that the great escape ? so apart from filmic script or as a result of a punishable act – confinemnt and isolation are constructs i don’t have much day to day connection with.
the open minded approach needs to have outcomes along the way – otherwise i’m concerned that this period of time will pass with nothing new to show.
i’ve tried responding to the first inclusion mix. it’s set me up on a particular path that is also yielding images i’m pleased with.
my zoom meeting appearances are also being enhanced by images from the residency.
as well as the zoom meetings and time spent researching, i have been able to get out and about helping to the walk the dog.
thursday was a bad day for me. i got news of another project changing their mind – two months worth of income disappearing in an email. i’ll be honest with you – it really got to me.
there’s help available so my plan after this is to look that up and see what’s possible.
i’m still processing the feeling – it’s akin to grief – and trying to carry on. in the coming weeks i don’t yet know how long this residency will last. it seems opened ended and all concerned aren’t bothered that it is. so while this is prevalent i’m continue doing what i’m doing – seeing where it takes me and responding accordingly.
considering for a moment if i’m happy with all of this – i can see that the research i’m doing is to some extent responding to my own personal needs to feel safe and ok. as yet no one has called me out on this.
the residency continues …