i love the notion of how january 1st each year is a beautifully pure state in which multitudes are possible. in those first few hours of the new year all the best bits of history informing what becomes into existence.
i spent a lot of yesterday thinking back to new years eve 1999. memories of that evening are mixed. i’ll not dwell on it too long now. i think i needed to record for myself that that night was on my mind and i’ve lost people from that evening and yes it makes me sad.
[ i take a few moments ]
i am happier now.
i can remember new years eves where i was so optimistic about the year being a better one for me yet i was short in personal belief about it being so.
after my hi hat and snare year i do believe in myself and how my potential this year is better than it has been in past new year days.
i know i have a lot of hard work ahead of me. this isn’t an issue as i’ve always put a lot of effort into what i do. the difference now is that i have a tenable sense of why i’m doing it. i feel less lost.
