‘Out of my depth’
Portmouth 27th July
Disappointed at the letter that slips through the door.
I wanted to make today but that’s not possible now
The cloak placed on my shoulders wraped around me unforgivably.
I feel totally out of my depth with the tears that flow from my OH. She recieved an un-expected expected letter today rescinding all her mobility DLA – the letter is full of inaccuracy – that I can deal with but her tears no – overwhelming not a lack of empathy as some say aspies are good at. That empathy is different – its about placing yourself in someone else’s head not about being unfeeling.
The day ends with 20 inches of badly
I recognize that fighting a battle on 2 fronts cant be won
internal
external
I have to choose
close eyes and look forward
concentrate
Drill
in through
my Forehead
inject me
with
bitter waters
jealously
remove
my uniqueness
With forced words
to fuel
your fires
Frack me
