I've snatched/ demanded a few hours in my studio after having a minor rant about how much f****ing domestic work I do at home and how much I resent it. Partner pointed out that in some ways I am very priviledged to be able to spend 6 weeks at home with the daughters while he has to work. Pile on the guilt I think. There's nothing more frustrating than being told why you should be enjoying something when in all honesty you just don't feel satisfied by 'bottoming out the wash basket'. Whatever the F*** that is. It's all the rage round here though if local mums are to be believed. Hrmph.
Not sure how to use these precious few hours now, and if I make the wrong decision I will feel even more resentful. I need a sense of achievement before 4pm. Here are my options (after all, when in doubt, waste more time writing and prioritising a list I always say).
1. Design and make a very beautiful rota detailing all the domestic chores, how often they need doing, and divide them between household members using a proportionate system depending on how much time they have available – might need help with the maths for this.
2. make a beautiful silk and felt scarf for my friend Kath who is 40 soon.
3. rummage through the big pile of notes, drawings, and rambles that I have collected over the last 15 years – I think they are going to be the starting point for a new project.
4. Use the big shared warehouse space while there's no-one in to look at some of the 25' long felt pieces I've been working on.
On balance I think the scarf is the winner on this occasion – the other ideas are too big and I'm learning not to set myself up for failure.
