S e c r e t n u m b e r o n e
Portsmouth April 11th
Home – wake in familiar bed but at 4:06am
I take it easy – I have been with people intensively all week so far and need a break – as an artist that’s possible but not easily understood by others not on the spectrum – anti-social – no – it saves my life – as it can be very waring working at social on top of concentrating creatively + the PTSD and associated depressions have messed with my tiredness capability and attention controls
Life is complex with aspergers – although it makes me the artist I am – attention to detail, constant pattern finding and ability with sound sculpting plus minimalism……….it has its social costs
Catch up time
Spend morning in the bath – my room only had shower – I have never gotten on well with showers – well spend some of it refreshing the hot and thinking – then work on the computer catching up with admin slow.
plus all morning the cat follows me everywhere – as if daring me to leave him for 3 days again
Wait and prepare for important call
tea
Sit
prepare
wait
life exam
then
suddenly
phone vibrates
and is answered
questions Answered
revealing conversation
part completed on Tuesday
R E S U L T i m m i n e n t
5 4 3 2 1
head spin as I wait for the words to fall
secret 1 revealed – my aspergers is officially
Konfirmed
