‘A bridge to far’
Portsmouth May 13th
Been a week since I last posted
Been a difficult week since I last posted
Sometimes interactions can be so tiring that they can affect you perceptions of the world around you. Yes am an artist 24/7 all be it an imperfect one but more than this I am an imperfect person too. This week has been testy – many social interactions resulting in ‘close meltdowns’ and hardly any recovery space which has been hard on that personal level and creative too – we all fight things in our past (or future) but although the PTSD is receding its left ADHD in its wake – Concentration is now a conscious thought rather than a natural impulse – tired I guess. The main thing is keeping going and as I now have a countdown till the performance on the 14th I cant afford to become tired or stop.
List of this last week
Monday: Morning manned our BigLocal stall at church fete – toll paid rest of day for the noise and throng by hiding at home patting out the flames – I pushed myself ‘a bridge to far’
Tuesday: Preparing to remake Uni space in morning – Biglocal meeting at lunchtime – AA2A skype directors meeting late afternoon – prepare for tomorrow
Wednesday: Project meeting about NESTA application – preparatory phone call about public realm work ready to chair a panel debate – Setting up and taking down mini neurological art show at University event in Portsmouth Guildhall – then…..Moving all my stuff (lots being sound artist too) into a usable space – finished late after some ‘near misses’ regarding my interacting aspergers
Thursday: 5 hours of sonic ‘making’ with another artist for his GFTA project – we perform late June as part of Portsmouth Festivities – Sound sculpting can be hypnotic – more tiding and systemising Uni space – Home – Tea with Dad before taking him to opening of ‘Storm Thorgersons’ exhibition at Portsmouth Guildhall – dropping surprise of Julian Lloyd Webber concert afterwards by giving him the tickets to ‘look after’ nonchalantly – new to be Looking after him as he needed wheelchair to get around for the first time after a fall – hard personal feelings about this – quite a trauma in its own way – home late.
Friday: Start with ‘ASC’ – ‘Aspie Staring Competition project planning meeting – Line manager meeting to discus assessments – Emails with OH – meeting with students who will be part of ASC – great response – meeting with documentary maker for SK project and handed over 15GB of video files to be woven into the visuals for the second sound work for the 14th – more systemising of space – home late
Saturday: take the toll of this weeks over working with sociability on my shoulders – one small external incident and I self combusted – rest of day in self-recovery not coping wishing isolation
Sunday: all day in self-recovery
lesson learning
exhaustion seems to be the price paid for over-interactionas a person with aspergers – after a twitter conversation this seems common
remedy: next 2 weeks cleared the decks to record the second piece for The Arts Catalyst performance on the 14th – and some experimentation.
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post each day of the countdown
