an annual blog charting my opinions and experiences as i continue to work towards understanding myself as a person better and how this underpins my practice.  there might also be some discussing and documenting my practice too.


hello .  my post tonight is one of up and down.  to begin with i can write about the opening of the ten exhibition at london road commuity hospital in derby.

ten years ago the new royal derby hospital opened and a project on site made sure that the bare walls of the public corridors were made more inviting by placing art works for patients, visitors and staff on those walls.  ten years on and air arts continue to do this and have a team working every day at the london road community hospital.

it was at london road where before christmas i helped to deliver what has become known as the mini museum project.

when we sat in january to go over the data and evaluation topics there was an unexpected invitation to be part of the ten exhibition as the air arts staff had decided to feature the mini museum project in ten.

last friday we went to the opening event so see the exhibition.  i have to say that with some pride i looked upon the photographs of the objects i had taken back in february.  it’s not very often now that i see my photographs as prints.


so after the up came the down.


another unsuccessful application.  i reflected about this while walking to collect the car after being fixed.

i might be being too hard on myself when i process these emails.  i suspect i’m not alone, well i know i’m not alone in receiving them.  the two applications were to opportunities made available by a-n.  both told me of their unprecedentedly high numbers of applications.  my irreverent self thinks at least i’m in the majority.

so after returning from the garage i filled up with comfort food, redbush tea and moto 3 from qatar.



i’m now sat in the living room, the internet router timer feverishly keeping track of the time and the puppy is asleep on the furniture.  everyone else are elsewhere.  i can admit to being in a wobble and this blurring my vision of what i make within my practice.

i agreed back in january to exhibit with friends at this years derbyshire open arts.  i’ve not done this before and between you and me i’m rather at odds what to show.  the weekend is predominately about 2d and 3d work and i’m still unsure as to wether i like to make such work.  when i put my mind to it i can actually make stuff what people like.  i need to focus and let go of caring.

this evening it all seems a little up or down –  black or white.

i smile to myself and remember of what lyes in between … that there is an in between.

i put myself out there in two applications. neither were successful.  it’s ok.

time to make a cup of tea.



i’m processing being successful again.  i must be successful at being unsuccessful as yet again i find myself being unsuccessful.

my practice doesn’t really want to cover being unsuccessful however i do seem to avail opportunities for myself to practice it.  i don;t really want to practice it as i don;t really want to get better at being unsuccessful.


part of my processing has been to eat well.  whenever i’m unsuccesful i find eating makes things better.  i’m no less unsuccessful, just less bothered by it.



it’s a while since being unsuccessful so today having a chance to be unsuccessful has made a change.



before eating, while really embracing the unsuccessfullness ness i took myself outside.  while i was there i captured a few moments of what  my unsuccessfulness ness felt like.








this morning i sit and stare through the newly created gap in the curtains.  a bus route goes past our window.   before the next bus, i study the distant tree.

my meditation is broke by curtain opening and puppy jumping onto the window sill.

during the first two months of the year i almost marked each day with a longing for sunshine.  my vitamin d levels becoming noticeably low.  each day staring out of the window at the monologue grey sky.

while i stared i forgot about the daffodils.  i did nothing and still they appeared.  their appearance exciting me at the prospect of things to come.

the puppy doesn’t notice me staring out of the window.





my view through the window makes me smile today, bright, sunny whisping clouds tickling the tops of the trees accompanied by all the best of female composers on radio 3.  a good day to be sipping tea and considering a blog post.

my week began with finishing off the re-iterteration of my practice website.  i made it live on minday and have been tweaking performance settings since then.  i think today i’m about done with the speed optimisation.

it’s something i’ve learnt about over time and i’ve seen how google especially has done a lot of work on providing analytical tools to help see where improvements can be made.

the website relaunch comes close on the heals of being featured by a-n on their instagram feed as a featured blogger.  when i was putting the week together i managed four images reasonably easily as it told a storey.  for the fifth i made an image specially for that day and i’m so pleased to see how that image has become the most liked of the week and is still receiving likes.

i’ve combined the week on instagram into a post on my site so it is with great pleasure for the first time to share both my week on instagram and my newly re-iterated website …

with the site up and running and flying solo i can turn my attention to a new project.  well i say new … it’s one i started last year and put to one side while making things for the silk mill.  with the website complete and other projects still in the germinating stage i see the opportunity to reconnect with the idea.

its my idea of making a clock from the windows on one side of the ground floor of the silk mill museum.  for now i’ll make a maquette.

this morning in going back to the idea i have realised that i need to be more considered about the object as i’ve learnt that the window shapes are very fragile when cut.  when last working on the project i got as far as making a prototype of the idea for he construction of the clock.


as well as gazing out the window this morning listening to music i have actually been busy getting all the pieces of the project together.  looking at the above image has reminded me of the sticking point i arrived at last year. i want to embed 5 leds per window bay and how to mount them remains unsolved.

this morning has also flagged a newly unsolved problem, that of how to make the clock so i can store it safely.

another sip of tea and a quick consideration of what else i need to write down today …

i’m good.




a short month, so a short review ? we’ll find out shortly.  with external projects in various stages of beginning and waiting to finish my main practice focus for the month has been to re-iterate my practice website.

informed by my on going experience at the derby silk mill museum of making, i came into february with the intention to place all in one place the nature of my multidiscipline practice.  i’ve maintained my own site for several years  and over the years have had a lot of different looking sites.  this iteration talks much more neatly about my portfolio of interests both at work and in play.

at the beginning i had great ambition and i can admit now that what was on paper at times did seem unachievable, simply because there was so much to do.

i’m happy to report my small amounts of work done often strategy has got me to a point where the site is about 75% complete as i write today.


the hospital project i’m working on with the silk mill has had an interesting bonus feature appear.  the arts organisation on site at the hospitals in derby is celebrating it’s 10th year anniversary and the arm at the london road community hospital have chosen the museum in miniature project to represent their work during this time.  the exhibition will feature 10 objects with selected stories from the the wards visits before christmas.  i’ve had a lot of joy working with assistant curator eilish to take photos of 8 of the objects for the exhibition.  the feedback from eilish and chris at the museum has been over whelmingly positive.

(apologies for not being able to fully embed the tweet with timelapse experiment from the photo shoot.)

the third image related endeavour this month has been to prepare for my week as a featured blogger on the a-n instagram feed.  i found the opportunity an interesting challenge and look forward to how the week unfolds.