today something has lifted – as i pressed send on the email enclosing the final invoice for a year long school project i realised i can stop.
the head space that opened up was very very unexpected. we’ve a couple of days away next week and the timing of this is adventure is spot on.
the other magnificent thing is that when looking at my diary for september it’s currently quite clear and you know what i don’t have the knot of anxiety this might have generated in the past. my landscape is not as baron as in previous years. i can rightly sit with the massive job well done feeling since pressing that send button.
the feeling of being able to relax from pushing is so liberating.
there are some things i would like to reflect upon and in particular the process of play and how this scales with age.
for now – in a wanting to relax and stopping pushing – i’m going to leave it all alone.