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Started my course yesterday and feel really good about being there even if I’m a little anxious about the work ahead. Monday marked the start of our induction week, an opportunity to familiarise our self with the department of Psychology, meet course leaders and students and to learn more about the MA course framework. Evidently one thing that was mentioned frequently yesterday was the importance of confidentiality amongst students in group work. One of the rules which particularly stuck in my head was that each person is responsible for their own disclosures and risk taking. Upon hearing this I felt a little worried as I wondered whether these issues might have implications on this blog seeing as its publicly accessible. Subsequently I don’t want to do anything that will jeopardise my place on the course though if I am to continue to blog it would be in my best interest to be selective in what I write and display so as not to implicate others. It may even be worth re-evaluating the functions of the blog and what it is used for as issues of confidentiality are bound to crop up through work undertaken as part of personal therapy and clinical placement. Maybe I could share these concerns with my programme leader so that I have some form of accountability if there’s anything I’m uncertain about.

One thing I can say; referring to myself, is that I really got a lot out of the experience of being able to work in a communal studio environment again and having the opportunity to experience art therapy firsthand. One activity required us to express a journey; either real or imagined, that was personally meaningful. As a response I started to think about myself and systematically trying to retrace the steps that lead to me wanting to study art therapy in the first place. I started by drawing around my shoes and using these shapes as templates to cut out a number of foot steps. In each ‘foot step’ I wrote a brief sentence detailing a significant event that related to art therapy (ordering them chronologically). I then arranged the footsteps into a circle as it struck me that in spite of the varying professional and academic detours I’d taken I’d ultimately ended up back where I started 10 years ago; still deliberating over whether or not I could be an art therapist. I found this to be profoundly amusing and began to think about how this notion of walking in circles might form the premise for new artworks given my own creative preoccupations with journeys and transition.

In addition I’ve also been working on a video for the upcoming Kiss the Future exhibition at Schwartz Gallery in Hackney Wick. The aptly titled Wherever I Go, There I am, should be completed in the next few weeks although I’m still hoping to visit the space prior to submitting my application.


As part of my MA Art Psycotherapy course it’s mandatory for me to be undertaking some of form of therapy myself. So for the past fortnight I’ve been trawling the internet trying to find someone to work with. Fortunately the University were able to provide me with guidelines that have helped me to generate a shortlist of 4 therapists working within Berkshire and the surrounding areas. I’m hoping to have this sorted out before the start of the course in a week’s time.


Retrospectively it’s great how keeping a blog allows you to compile your thoughts in an orderly way whilst also being able to draw out important themes, ideas or questions. Following on my from my last post I’d been thinking a lot about this idea of art as vocation and how it might contribute to one’s overall sense of well being. Incidentally the start of this blog also coincides with the beginning of a new school term and a return to work. Seeing as we had some inset day training booked at a remote location in Reading (away from the school) I figured that the longer commute in might provide an opportune time to listen to a few podcasts. Something that particularly caught my attention was a talk entitled Visual Art Workspaces and Contemporary Art Making, part of the MoMA Talks: Conversations series 2010. Amidst these discussions Diane Espaldon cites Tom Hodgkinson (editor of the Idler and The Freedom Manifesto) who sums up this concept of vocation brilliantly…..

‘A career is an arc that stretches out ahead of you with an ever-vanishing point at the end. Hodgkinson says what we should be seeking instead is our vocation. He describes it as a calling, a task that earns you a living and enjoy doing. Vocation is a community-based idea of work; a giving experience. Vocation; according to Hodgkinson, is steady and flat and you never have to retire from it beacuse it’s who you are.’


Weirdly I’d find myself thinking back to this blog quite frequently during the next few days as most of my inset day training comprised of an introduction to Neuro Linguistic Programming (NLP). Neuro-Linguistic Programming is an approach to communication, personal development and psychotherapy created in the 1970s. The title refers to a stated connection between the neurological processes, language, and behavioral patterns that have been learned through experience and can be organized to achieve specific goals in life. Granted this isn’t something you’d expect to learn about on a teacher training day though it was nonetheless an interesting precursor to my MA Art Psychotherapy course. What particularly interested me was a session on limiting beliefs and empowerment. Whilst this training was intended for the class setting, my thoughts turned to my role as an artist and the limits I’d put on my practice, whether it be my investment of time, energy or even allowing space to work. Initially I started to wonder whether I needed a studio space, to be around other artists or if I needed to be more determined in seeking out opportunities to show my work publicly. Fortunately the training also identified a way of testing these beliefs through what it called the logical levels of change (see below).

Mission/ Spirituality – For what purpose am I doing this?

Identity – Who am I? How do I see myself?

Beliefs/ Values – Why am I doing this?

Capability – How can I do this next task?

Behaviour – What do I need to do?

Environment – Where am I? When am I doing this?

Whilst I’m not completely sold on the merits of NLP; and even writing about it here sounds a little New Age, it did nonetheless give me the encouragement to think about my art practice and ways of taking it forward. Like other artists I’d be the first to admit that I’ve made concessions and lost the creative vigour and discipline I had as an undergraduate student. Although maybe the creation of this blog marks a step in the right direction.