Am I writing this post because I feel motivated or does writing this post motivate me?
I’m not missing the MA course as such since it finished but I am missing something — I feel somewhat directionless. Perhaps it’s because deadlines are now self-imposed — whether I finish the thing today or tomorrow doesn’t really matter — leading to a certain fatigue of the brain and inability to act?
The thought of writing (and indeed of reading as research) seems too much effort contemplated in abstraction, but once embarked upon I seem unable to stop. Perhaps this is a clue; that thinking is best replaced with doing with the self-discipline to write regularly, spurring myself away from obfuscation towards more positive results???
I’m aware of the echo of past tutorial voices — ‘be discerning; only write down what it’s essential to say’ — but such instructions refer to another time and place. Perhaps now is the time to supplant them with the determination to write in a way that’s useful to me and which helps truly shape my practice?
Those bored by my ramblings may wish to avoid this blog in future.
