Project Me

The Supermarket team is same as last year – with the addition of one of last year’s volunteers. It is so nice to see everyone again, it all feels so familiar. And it great to say hello to the exhibitors that I know. I am getting more used to how Supermarket is behind the scenes – it’s a bit messy but it works! The office is its usual jumble of hastily unpacked irritable printers, orphaned cables, and grubby coffee machines, along with remnants of past fairs’ merchandise and a couple of already cluttered desks … there’s something wonderfully homely about it … it’s an honest and friendly space.

It’s nice to be back in a familiar venue, though this time we don’t have the run of the building and as a result of that the meeting room is a little oddly located at the foot of an unused staircase. I say unused – it’s actually an emergency exit but only when the music venue on the floor above has an event. I might see if I can find some semi opaque fabric for the inside of the glass doors that separate the room from the fair entrance. I was rather anxious about the space … as were several others of my colleagues but we have been re-assured that it’s okay … so that’s where I will be. It was good for me to realise that if any issue arises it’s not something that I have to solve alone … I am part of a team.

I flipped thought the catalogue/magazine – it’s always intriguing to see what graphic magic has been worked on the basic unformatted texts that I proofread. I feel bad that there are some typos in Alice’s editorial … I remember reading it at least once but it could have been one of the texts that was finalised too late for me to manage a second or even third reading … it’s a bit of a blur. Alice is being philosophical about it.

My task for the day is to speak with as many of the meeting moderators as possible. To introduce myself in person after the weeks of email correspondence and to go through some ’housekeeping’ … remind them to ask questions, to encourage discussion, and for everyone to swap contact details.

Inger, the other artist staying the apartment, and I had a lovely conversation over breakfast yesterday … she’s not here for Supermarket and will head home (north) before the fair opens. It is hard … and perhaps even unnecessary … for me to stop thinking about how much better and more enjoyable my life is going to be when I am spending my time with artists rather than dealing with local council bureaucracy.

John asked how the rest of the Black Hole, Riga residency worked out – he was the first of three visiting workshop leaders – I was delighted to be able to tell him that it really opened things up for me and re-engaged me with trusting my practice. Niamh mentioned speaking with Sorcha and hearing how well we got on with each other on the residency. It was great to bump into Kristian who I follow on Instagram but haven’t had contact with since Riga.

It feels things are definitely moving in the right direction …

Arrived at the KRO (National Artists’ Organisation) apartment yesterday afternoon and was pleased to discover that I am staying in the room with a view. It feels pleasantly familiar to be here again – my third (possibly fourth?) time staying here. KRO also have an apartment in Paris perhaps I should look into staying there sometime during my sabbatical … finances permitting!

The meetings programme has been printed and placed in every exhibitor’s pack. Now I need to send an email to the information coordinator letting here know that I will be coming with the sign-up sheets – from past experience I can’t imagine that there will be a rush to register for meetings but one lives in hope.

First though a short run … inspired by, or remembering, my time in Riga I want to go for a short run each morning. This might be ’compromised’ by a few late nights … and by relocating to a friend’s apartment for the night that I was unable to book this room – logistically inconvenient but a great opportunity to spend time with P!

I am also really looking forward to catching up with the exhibitors who I have gotten to know over the last few years … it feels as though I am starting to build some kind of professional relationship with them … though in writing that I realise that is might well be less true than I imagine – recent experience bears that out! One of the things that I have let slip … not managed to maintain … is a good mailing list for when I have exhibitions … nor do I use Facebook, or even Instagram, for inviting people to openings … it’s a bit different letting them know about what I am doing, and by that I mean posting pictures on Instagram of things that are underway or have even passed … I think that people still appreciate getting an invitation to an event – I know that I do! So that is another thing for my sabbatical year ’to-do’ list: update mailing list, and re-acquaint myself with Facebook.

And of course I am excited to meet the first time exhibitors and to find out about them. As my confidence grows I feel better about speaking with them as peers – which is what they are. It also makes me think that I would like to re-activate Glitter Ball … in some instances it is useful … meaningful … to have an organisation rather then being an individual … and there are some things that I don’t want to simply hand-over to the artists’ club or that aren’t appropriate for the club. Thinking about N’s advice to use my position at the club to get my own projects going … it would be good to have some collaborative Glitter Ball Uppsala Artists’ Club events happening in the future … perhaps the series of talks that I want to organise cold be this kind of collaboration – that is well worth considering.

Early Saturday morning. Despite a busy week and being tired I woke early … I do enjoy feeling as though I have the city … the world … to myself while everyone else slumbers and sleeps. I remember being the first to wake even as a teenager.

Tomorrow I head in Stockholm where I will be until the following Monday. I am excited and nervous about Supermarket – both familiar feelings regarding the fair. The meeting programme was finalised and sent out last weekend – this year exhibitors can both sign-up in advance and at the fair … hopefully this combination satisfies those who like to plan and those who don’t! It’s my third (technically fourth but 2020 doesn’t count) as the meeting coordinator and I am finding my way with it!

I have set myself a task … challenge … goal … for this year’s fair, and that is to be active in promoting myself as an artist. A couple of things have recently happened that made me aware that some people think of me as a organiser/curator/educator rather than a practicing artist. Now that I am familiar with some of the exhibitors I am going to start by asking them about their exhibition/project programming … if that feels comfortable I might even ask some exhibitors that I don’t know! I would really like to find somewhere in another country to show next year … or in the next two years – and Supermarket is an (the!) ideal place to start some discussions.

Unfortunately the funding application for the residencies in Riga was not successful so I won’t be going there this summer. However I have said the I want to speak with Kaspars about other possibilities of being there … perhaps organising my own kind of residency … and I still want to see if there is away of him running a Black Hole residency here – the artists’ clubs funding application was also unsuccessful so there’s no money to that in 2024. Not going to Riga is a disappointment but it does take the pressure off this summer and means that I can visit P in southern Sweden and have a proper break.

Yesterday at the studio I identified the third work that I want to show at Lövstabruk – in the group show this summer. I don’t know why but I got in my mind that I should show three pieces … and now I have them selected – which is a relief. The last piece needs … should be presented in … a glass vitrine/cube so I am going to get in touch with the museum and see if they have something that I can borrow. It feels really good that I know the team there well enough to ask such a question … fingers crossed that they have something. On Thursday I sorted through other older works and materials that I thought might be suitable but nothing spoke to me … and then on Friday as I was doing something else my eyes fell on a small(er) piece that has been standing in the studio since I moved there. Not only has it been in plain sight but it’s been something that I have frequently had to move as it is rather delicate and an awkward … vulnerable … shape. I am very grateful for that moment of clarity … and vision … yesterday – Mr Dandy Blue’s Lepidopterarium will be getting a second showing!

Having too much on is making me pragmatic. It has been interesting to look at which existing works fit with this themed group show … and by ’look’ I mean think through, re-consider, re-configure, and play around with in my mind. Maybe being professional isn’t just about making work but it’s also about making the work work! There are only a handful of pieces that I have made that have been shown more than once … Tender, the patchwork punchbag, and Play, the original video tape installation … and once I sent some previously exhibited pieces to a show in Glasgow – they were chosen (by me) for purely logistic reasons and restraints, and then Sara Rosling selected two older works for the Uplandska Salong last year It makes sense to show existing works in thematic group shows – the different contexts affording or drawing attention to particular aspects that always already existed – extending the thinking around the work … and that is very exciting.

The things that I do best are the simplest … simple treatments – such as drapery.

Play, Rest, … flags, … tie drapes

Let the materials work … live!

This realisation came to me as I struggled with how and what to show in the first of the three train stations. After working through various complex and unsatisfying possibilities I landed upon the installation … ? … works … that I presented on the Black Hole residency in Riga. Inviting the fantastic Sorcha McNamar (fellow residency artist) to be curator led in a subtly but significantly different result – one that very much responded to the room and the existing possibilities there in. I looked again at the photographs that I had taken on the site visit to the Arboga. The room is large and there are various architecture elements – pillars, radiators, window ledges – that suggest points of rest … contact … for artworks without requiring me to pierce the wall surfaces or construct complicated additional structures and/or systems. These I think are the answers … especially as I was also coming to realise what I would show in the space.

I will show a collection of simple things – a series of flags fashioned from vintage bedsheets. The flags draped from poles should look as if casually placed … laid down … resting.

Flags have now become the over arching theme … motif … for the three parts of the project. Each individual location will exhibit a different scale of flag made of a different type of textil – bedlinen, clothes, table/kitchen linen. In turn these three textiles relate to different aspects of everyday life – the concept with which I was invited to start with – the intimacy of the bedroom, the publicness of the street, and the familial/social of the kitchen/the dining table.

The … my! … project has a name now – ’departure and arrival’. Again it is a simple title that somehow in its simplicity invites … anticipates … welcomes … embraces … a range of interpretations and possibilities. It takes in the particularity for the venues – train stations – and hopefully opens space between the concrete and the philosophical … between the real and the artificial … the mundanity of commuting and the excitement of flights of fantasy.

A quick look online tells me that ’draper’ is ’originally a term for a retailer or wholesaler of cloth’, isn’t it still that? I can recognise myself in the definition – perhaps not a wholesaler but perhaps a retailer of sorts. An online dictionary informs that retail is a transitory verb meaning i, to sell in small quantities directly to the consumer and ii, to tell/retell. Although I am rather suspicious of this second definition – wondering if it is not aural misstake … “retail” / “retell” – I appreciate it might possibly have something to do with narration, story-telling, making something known (again).

The internet also give me a reference to a comic novel by H G Wells – Mr Polly, published 1910, the tale of a man tired of his dreary life as a regional gentleman’s outfitter, inspired by H G Wells’ experiences of being in the drapery trade.

Less than a fortnight after requesting a year’s sabbatical – to focus on my own work, and take a much needed extended break from my job at the council – and about a week after it all being agreed and announced and me being excited and scared about having a year as a full-time artist I see the advert for two part-time teachers/lecturers at the local foundation college.
Part of me really wants to apply, and another part of me really wants to ignore it … is it a test of my resolve or just a coincidence … or both!

If I hadn’t applied for the sabbatical I would without a question be applying for the teaching post.  Teaching at such a college on such a course would probably be the best option for me if I want regular teaching.  And could be great fun – the students are either already on their way to becoming artists or they are working out what art is and if it is something for them.  My foundation year was fundamental, the tutors I had enabled me to make informed choices about what would become not just my practice but my ways of thinking about art and culture socially and politically.  It would be amazing to have a position where I could do the same.

But I have applied for the sabbatical and I have promised myself a year of focussing on my own practice and seeing where that leads me.  I should not be distracted or seduced by other offers and ideas. I should feel the FOMO and do it anyway!  I should have the courage of my convictions.

[Later that same day] I could apply … there’s no guarantee that I will even get an interview … though obviously I feel that I should … and that I should be offered the post!
There might be opportunities to be a guest of visiting lecturer.

[Two days later] What about applying as an artist-duo? That would be a perfect solution if I can find someone to be Gilbert to my George … or would it be more Morecambe to my Wise? I really like that idea, and I think that it makes sense in terms of being able to be active artists at the same time as taking on a teaching role.

Yesterday we had a very good meeting about the upcoming show at Lövstabruk. Several of us confessed … admitted … to being over optimistic with the time that we can commit to such an exhibition. Our discussion was very useful not least because by some route we came to talk about artistic freedom – allowing ourselves artistic freedom! I realised that I was spending time and energy being concerned about how the pieces that I would like to show can be justified in terms of the title … theme. How could I give a coherent account or explanation of myself? I think that it was through reassuring another artist that they should try not to be over concerned about their own anxieties about this that I came to realise that I have the same ’right’ (?) – to make … show … what I want and need to without recourse to anyone else’s agenda. Does anyone else even have an agenda? Who is this imaginary other that I have created? The venue and the title (that we ourselves came up with) are parenthesis that hold the work together … and at the same time they are elements that create (hold?) space enabling an exhibition to come into existence. I see these parenthesis operating in different dimensions … on different plains … at the same time. At the moment I am pretty sure about two pieces that I want to show, I would like to find a third.

Immediately after that I had a meeting with the Artists’ Club’s treasurer about the administrator/communicator’s job description. It was both productive and enjoyable to work on this together – exactly the sort of dialogue that I miss in my work with the council … thinking something through with a colleague more often than not leads to a better result than working alone.

I then spent a couple of hours at the studio preparing for being on a panel discussion that evening. The Upland Art Association are celebrating their 90 year anniversary (jubilee?) in collaboration with the Uppsala Art Museum, and had invited three artists to speak about the how it is to be an artist today, our route to our practice, and our hopes for the future. I enjoyed myself and enjoyed listening to the other two artists – we had many points of connection and common concerns. Speaking with several of the art associations committee after the discussion it certainly sounds as though there are mutually beneficial possibilities for the Uppsala Artists’ Club to collaborate with them.

A very discursive day that left me tired and happy – excited and energised by the intangible but definite advancements that had been made on three, possibly more, fronts. After the long Swedish winter is feels as though there are definite signs of new growth.